The Bad Guy

Dearest,

So, now my dad has made my mom upset enough that she left him. What I did not know at the time was why she left. Would you like to know? Even now, it is not an easy story. I think that marriages break up for many reasons and even though I know some of the reasons that my mom left my dad, I am not confident that I know them all. I know at the time I did not understand the reasons that she left. I just knew that they had a big fight and he broke the window.

By my past letters, you may have some ideas. As you know, dad was a scary man to me, my mom, my dog and even my grandma. I know that he said mean things to all of us and made us feel bad. He scared us and made me think that he was going to hit me several times. I do think that he spanked me a few times, but not many. I learned quickly not try not to make him mad. But, just because he is scary and mean sometimes, would that be a reason for my mom to leave? Surprisingly, yes. It is not good to live with someone that makes you feel that way. As you know, I did not feel safe around him, I know my grandma didn’t either and I am sure that my mom did not.

My dad had other girlfriends and he even took me to their houses and he told me not to tell my mom. That was wrong. I did tell my mom and my dad acted like I did not know what I was talking about. He said that I was a silly little girl who did not know what I was talking about! (So, really he called me a LIAR) My dad drank too much alcohol and he would often come home drunk. It used to cause horrible fights that used to wake me up, frightened.

My dad lied to my mom. He lied to her about his other women and I am willing to bet that he lied about other things as well. No one should lie to someone that they love. My dad lied so much to my mom that she felt that she could not trust him anymore. She could not believe any word that came out of his mouth, even when it was the truth. It is tiring to live with someone like that, always wondering what is the truth and what is not. I am sure that you are familiar with characters in books that are not honest. They are usually not well liked characters and they usually make a lot of trouble in the story. They often hurt people and make a lot of trouble, sometimes they are even the bad guys, aren’t they?

So, right now, my dad is really sounding like the bad guy, isn’t he? I wish that I could paint a better picture of him love, but the fact is, my dad is a bad guy. I can’t tell you everything now, but as my letters continue we will talk about how bad my dad really can be.